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Wednesday, July 24, 2013

{ a w a k e n , }

“you can live a whole life time never being awake.”

- The Peaceful Warrior, 2006

“one who awakens gradually out of a dream, a delicious, grotesque, impossible dream, to feel again the realities pressing into her soul”

- Kate Chopin, The Awakening, 1899

“Perhaps it is better to wake up after all, even to suffer, rather than to remain a dupe to illusions all one's life.”

- Kate Chopin, The Awakening, 1899

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Newest tattoo from two weeks ago-- inspired by a varied collection of literature, film, thought & words.

{ a w a k e n ,} -- dont let yourself become numb to the world

- xxS

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

This past weekend a bunch of friends and I met up at our friend Dom's house in Ellicottville, NY. Whenever Dom had parties here before i was never able to go due to work {or not being in the country} - this time i was able to go friday afternoon to saturday afternoon. I was bummed i couldnt stay the second night but it was still such a nice time. Ellicottville is perfect & lovely at any time of the year. Being a ski town it is in its prime in winter but I've gone down there with my family during autumn and its just breathtaking with all of the variant coloured leaves. This time around it was nice to see green on green on green. The house was beautiful up on a hill with this gorgeous wall covered with windows. It was so lovely to be able to get away and see a different place if only for one night.

- xx S

Monday, July 22, 2013

weekly style capture 18.0

// Sunday -- >>
// maxi: forever21, 20$ // scarf: h&m, 14$

// Monday -->>
// skirt: anthropologie, 40$ // shirt: fossil, 20$ // necklace: {stolen from my mum}

// Tuesday -- >>
// crop bra: free people, 14$ // shorts: thrifted & diy, 6$ // headwrap: brick lane market, 8£ //

// Wednesday -- >>
// lace shirt: fossil, 15$ // jeans: fossil, 25$ // striped tank: old navy, 12$ / scarf: charlotte russe {stolen from my sister}

//Thursday -- >>
// crop bra: uo, 10$ // skirt: charlotte russe, 15$ {stolen from my sister, ha}

// Friday -->>
// shirt: fossil, 25$ // jeans: fossil, 20$ //

// Saturday -- >>
// maxi: forever21, 15$ // tank: fossil, 20$ // hair pin: icing, 7$ //

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eeek, im way too excited about this beautiful new Memoir Satchel from Fossil. It came in the other day for the Fall 2013 floorset & i bought it on the immediate -- {no but really, i left the mall, drove to the bank, withdrew money from my savings & drove back to get it, sooooo, oops} I had been wanting something fresh for awhile and kept trying to like some of the older summer sale bags, but never pulled the trigger. This bag came in and i fell in love with the colour and simplicity of the hardware. Needless to say, im obsessed.

- xxS

Monday, July 15, 2013

nos·tal·gi·a

I've written and spoke over and over again about my discontent with being home and my yearn to be back abroad. I've bored all of my friends and even annoyed myself with my endless drone. However, I cannot shake it--the nostalgia. Every single day i am reminded of how very far i am from where i felt most alive. It sounds so incredibly dramatic but today marks seven months since ive been home, which makes it ten months since i first left. Over and over again I surprise myself with how quickly time passes. Not a day goes by that I dont miss the beautiful places, people, and moments--or ache for the person I was in those months.
A lot of this hits home more so now because it is summer, and i can no longer distract myself with coursework of my last semester, and now I've graduated. So now what? Too much time in my own head has never served me well, and with no set path or plan for future months, i end up back in those wonderful three months where my only worry was not having wifi once i left my flat. Its also scary because although these moments of life seem engraved in my very skull, they also seem to be fading with time.
I try to be positive and assert the fact that i will be able to go back abroad one day, but since that day is undetermined it is much easier to attempt to reverse time and to re-live those three months. It doesnt help that I get a sharp pang of jealousy whenever I see other people, either that i know or through the internet, being able to explore all these beautiful places--especially when I know ive been in that exact spot in their photos.
So for now I will continue to be homesick for the places I only knew for a few months, or a few days, or a few hours and pray and dream that i will be back someday soon. xx

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